Weetabix x 2.
Wholemeal toast x 2, butter.
Jacket potato, margarine, cottage cheese, 5-bean salad, salad.
Blackcurrant frangipane, custard.
Meatballs in tomato sauce, boiled potatoes, carrots.
Ice-cream (2 scoops).
Raisins and sultanas.
After a positive day yesterday, it feels like things have crumbled today.
It’s the first time over the 7 days that I haven’t completed everything on the meal-plan. But not much. It was a bit of pastry from lunch pudding, 2 boiled potatoes at tea-time, and a handful of raisins at supper.
I’ve felt my balloon of motivation deflating as the day’s gone on, because of my intrusive thoughts influenced by things at the dining room. I found it much better the couple of days before to control these, to not let the Eating Disorder shout it’s abuse because of comparisons at the table. I began to start turning the struggle into a positive situation.
I held it together for as long as I could, until it all just felt overwhelming. There’s still lots I want to blog about from yesterday, so much swishing about at the moment. I did start a post to talk through it today. But it’s been a bit full-on with visitors. And I’m not going to lie – my head’s a bit pre-occupied with weigh-day tomorrow morning. 🙁 Thank you if you’ve read this.