Weetabix x 2.
White toast x 2 (…Marmite on one slice)
Chickpea and spinach curry, naan bread, boiled rice, side salad.
Ice-cream (2 scoops).
Chicken mayo sandwich (wholemeal), 5-bean salad, side salad.
Pineapple sponge and custard.
…& the usual PINT of semi-skimmed milk.
So this morning I was 0.7kg up since last Thursday, which means a positive 0.1kg off the weekly target. Much better progress… it shows that little things like not standing up on my laptop, maybe even not wearing heels as often, the extra odd bit of spontaneous fruit, as well as testing new snack options out… they all add up!
I almost beat myself up for not having time to do a ‘good enough’ blog post, as it’s been a full on day! Filled with a handful of F*CK IT moments, quite an intense/triggering group discussing ‘dietary rules and behaviours’ and the first session of ‘Body Awareness Therapy’… but rounded off nicely with a bubbly bath and a quiz hosted by one of the patients. (it made me very happy that one of the answers was ‘Rugrats’… oh, the 90’s were good times…)
I’ve started a post, but I recognise it’s important to conquering my ‘perfectionism’ and overall balance of life, to tell myself it’s okay not to post a finished, in-depth or detailed entry every day. If we’re going to be happier in life, often it means lowering our expectations, rather than desperately mentally sprinting for every goal. It might not sound relevant to my Eating Disorder, but I think practicing this way of thinking really is… it means I won’t feel as ‘low’ and undeserving in myself to eat certain things and taste food if I haven’t achieved everything I’d ‘ideally’ set out to do that day.
I hope you’ll come back tomorrow to hear more about today’s f*ck it moments. They involve Costa, a mushy Braeburn and a phone-call with my sister…