The End is Near…

My brain is mush at the moment. The past 2 days I’ve been on the unit all day, no leave. I had one incident on Friday evening so that’s why I couldn’t go on overnight leave as planned last night. But overall, I’m doing good generally. Since last time I posted, things have progressed a … Continue reading The End is Near…

Pirate Ship Minds

Imagine your head is one of those pirate ship rides. You know the ones that go up and down one way and the next. I felt like that for so long. When I get to the point of being mentally unwell, the pirate ship is high and thriving to stomach-ache level. My thoughts are scattered … Continue reading Pirate Ship Minds

Accepting a Changeable Body

I’ve never been so disgusted in all my life. At my body, my face, my everything. I’ve avoided mirrors apart from when washing my face, at which point there’s been a repelling magnet against me looking at anything else of me in the corner of my eye. I had avoided thinking about it – I’ve … Continue reading Accepting a Changeable Body

Birthdays with Mental Health Issues

That’s lots of us – the title. So I’m not unique to talk about this. I was a little nervous that on the ward they would make a big fuss about my birthday, but I think they were aware that I didn’t want that. When I woke up and left my room staff wished me … Continue reading Birthdays with Mental Health Issues

Birthday Trepidations…

Anyone else dread their birthday? I don’t all of the time, but when I’ve been in hospital I don’t take care of myself. I put on weight from being contained and not doing enough exercise, as well as some binging and purging. As well as that I just don’t feel motivated to ‘dress up’ for … Continue reading Birthday Trepidations…